I am suicidal

[needhelpbad]

I am losing my ability to speak and understand language. It is becoming harder and harder to understand people and be an active participant in social situations without being confused. My words are fumbled and don't come out the way I want to. I cannot construct long elaborate sentences anymore. I can't express myself like I used to as a child.

It has become harder to make decisions as well. I am extremely forgetful. I can't concentrate on anything, especially people's words. I have sleep problems.

I really don't know what to do. I can't function in my life because it is just too difficult to interact with people.

I also have social anxiety disorder, which may have been triggered by my fear of being unable to communicate and listen well, causing me to avoid any social situation I can.

I really need help.

[Maria RN]

Hi. Sorry to hear about the difficulties that you have been experiencing. It must have been quite frustrating for you. I hope that you could discuss with your family doctor about how you feel and how the symptoms have been affecting your every day life. Your doctor may refer you to a psychiatrist for evaluation and treatment. Problems with language comprehension may result from lesions in the areas of the brain. To find out if your symptoms have organic cause, a referal to a neurologist may also be considered.

[BLRspinal]

Welcome to "I am changing, and I don't like it!" If it can make you feel better, you do know you are not alone. That you speak the same feelings I expressed to my neurologist at one time; I even asked him to test me for Alzheimer's disease. He thinks I'm overly distracted. Stop it thinking just for how you act and behave, you don't want to live anymore. Stop it. You may have picked up some bad habits, and don't know they are bad, and it's making you not think too well right now. Get good night sleep by not staying up late or eating food late at night. And drink water and reduce sugary foods. Study more about eating health and nutrition. Get plenty of exercise. It's what your body requires to help slow down the changes that are taking place you do not like.
I deal with back pain problems, and fatigue, and slow thought problems, but I never give up on myself, and stop believing there is no value in who I am, that I think I should die. Stop it. You are worthy to be here no matter who you are or what happens to you. When it is your time to die, you won't be able to stop it. Hopefully, you will not make the decision for your own fate.